Geunyang

For a long time, I've been journaling important parts of my life. Since this blog is new, I'm gonna share some moments that I deem as a crucial part of my life thus far. Moments which became highlight of the year. Last year, I had a "best-friend break up". It was soooo painful, it torments me for months. Some may say it's more painful than breaking up from your boyfriend/girlfriend. But idk tho, I've never had one. I want my future husband to be my first and my last. Added by my insecurities, fear of rejection, and her being my only best friend, the breakup torments me. I can't really say it's a breakup, it's just distancing, getting further apart as day goes. Have you ever had that? If so, then you know what I meant. The reason was pretty much stupid. I was jealous. She became close to a friend of mine (in a romantic relationship), denies their relationship exist, and somewhat forgot I exist. You know? the kind of jealousy that burns with thoughts...

In the glimpse of time, I'm reminded of how depressing life is. Long time no see, Finally I see you again. I thought you were gone. I have almost forgotten. I guess you're destined to be part of my life, keeps on coming back every now and then to remind me how it feels to be alive. You pain my walk of life, but right now I'm relieved to see you. Dear wounded kid, I'm here for you. I will grow up and take care of you. I will love you as how you should have been loved. Let us both heal together. Perhaps one day you can come back to me unwounded. And even then, I will love you. I'm not able to heal you, yet. But I'll always have my shoulder for you to cry on. Cry on, little me. You'll be okay. Maybe not today, but you'll be okay. October 16th, 2020 -K